I've forced myself to choose a side on that debate even though my intuition says otherwise. I've always compared my life as a book already written out--that I'm just living out my life that's written as I flip through the pages but in my gut I knew it wasn't fully correct. I've refined my saying to more accurately represent what I see.
"My life follows a book that is already written out, but at each moment where a decision or choice must be made--I can choose to either keep following the book that is already written or follow a whole new book." -me
Now some people will say but that's free will !! With careful observation, there's a nuance in it which gives it a whole new paradigm. It's not free will but at the same time, it's not destiny either. And this is how I view the world. The reason why I couldn't seam well with society and human constructs is that the universe is made to be endless but it is human to quantify, categorize or deconstruct reality so that we can understand it. But how mainstream society do it scientifically ironically pushes society further away from the truth it until we accept that there are other ways than just through empirical methods or experience.
Now are "Laws of physics" are being challenged in the quantum level. I've always had this feeling in the past that how science is right now is a like a huge jigsaw puzzle--we make "laws and theories" and all the pieces thus far has fit, but what happens to us when we get to the point where the last piece DOES NOT FIT (and this happens alot in life). We now have to amend our "laws", It's always bothered me because the masses see the world in black and white while I see it as gray. I wish someone had told me that philosophers and physicists in the past have already tackled this problem of induction and it could have saved me from going into a huge depression.
Our laws of physics can only take us so much but majority of professors that's not updated into the latest research will deny you that and look down on you cause your just a kid. Our laws of reasoning can only take you so much since the more you know, the less you know but adults will tell you you're just a kid you don't know anything. People don't realize that the more you get into human constructs like getting a degree, getting a good job, making money, finding success--the less and further you are to understanding the universe/reality. Now that I'm an "adult" somewhat-- I still hold the same view on how the universe is and how reality is. Thankfully, learning more about quantum mechanics gives me relief that what and how I see reality and the universe is in line with how science and even religion is heading towards. Am I different? Not really, I'm both different and same--but that doesn't make sense. Unfortunately, if you're trying to make sense out of it, you never will. Some people think inside the box, some people are gifted to see outside the box.. But only when you see that there is no box--is when you'll be able to make "sense" of what I see and feel.
I feel that the universe is a superposition of all possible equations, but only when either you make a conscious choice/observation does it decohere into "reality". My life so far can be summed into Schrodinger's Cat. Some people think schrodinger's cat is dead, some say it's alive.. I say it's both-- and that's probably why I've struggled in the past. 99.99% of the world will NEVER be able to relate to me and I should just accept that so I can finally get out of this depression once and for all and try to grow this human construct called "wealth".
The Intuitive Mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift. - Albert Einstein
The Intuitive Mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift. - Albert Einstein
