Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Adapting to Change required assumptions, KANT, BELIEFS, MORALS

I haven't learned everything there is to know.

What I have learned to believe either by force-unwillingly thrust upon us, as an expression of the outside environment-or by choice-as an expression of the inner forces that operate within us like our curiosity and attractions-may not be very useful with respect to fulfilling ourselves in some satisfying manner.

What we have learned that is useful and works to our satisfaction is still subject to change because of the changing environmental conditions.




Kant believed that, if an action is not done with the motive of duty, then it is without moral value. He thought that every action should have pure intention behind it; otherwise, it is meaningless. The final result is not the most important aspect of an action; rather, how the person feels while carrying out the action is the time at which value is attached to the result.




Our obsession with benefiting ourselves brings up the relationship between self-interest and morality. Deciding that a particular behavior is morally wrong in a particular circumstance is a value that can only be imposed by a self-interested being. A non self-interested being is incapable of conceiving of right and wrong in a moral sense. There is no such thing as moral right or wrong until there first exists self-aware self-interest. Right and wrong, in the perception of the actor, are defined by the ends that the actor’s natural instinct of self-interest guides her to embrace. The ends that we seek are always defined in the context of our self-interest and moral choices are always expressed in light of the ends we seek. We are not saying that morality IS self interest; nor are we saying that structures of ethical reasoning are synonymous with self-interested reasoning or motivation.

Mathematics provides a clarifying example. Nobody would say that mathematical reasoning and self-interest are the same thing. The structures of mathematical reasoning are independent of the phenomenon of human self-interested reasoning. However, all mathematicians always use the structures of mathematical reasoning in a self interested manner. Also, the only reason that mathematicians ever discover new mathematical structures is because they are responding to self-interested motivations. In the same way the structures of ethical reasoning are independent of the phenomenon of self interest. However, it is only by responding to self-interest that people embrace moral rules and ethical reasoning, and only through self-interest has any ethical thought ever been developed. So it is that our ethical thoughtfulness about moral right and wrong is born of and embraced through self-interest. Our self-interest is the foundation of our capacity to be moral. Our instinct to benefit ourselves makes our participation in moral choices possible.

That this instinct for self-interest may assert itself in minds that are ignorant, confused, twisted, broken and utterly unable to know what is truly good is a separate issue that does not negate the fundamental truth of Socrates’ insight that people never willingly harm themselves. Action based on ignorance still has the motive of benefiting the actor but lacks the knowledge to make good of that motive.


Question:
1. Have you ever committed a wrong action in which you did not seek to benefit yourself in some way?

Even motives of entertainment, stress relief or avoidance of anxiety count as seeking to benefit you. If you answer no, then your own life is a testimony to the truth of Socrates’ belief. If you answered yes, you must try to asses your answer. Did you really commit a wrong without trying to gain something...anything...from that action? If you commit any action, wrong or right, without a view to any end then you have done something extraordinarily rare. Completely motiveless actions are virtually unknown except perhaps in the case of disease or brain trauma. Even in cases of disease or brain trauma there is usually some kind of motivational context although it may be incoherent. It is highly likely that you have never committed a wrong action in which you did not seek to benefit yourself.

It is at this point that we come to an important clarification. Socrates did not state that doing wrong to others is ever right, but that the motivation for such actions determines the character of the will involved. Socrates maintained that people are never motivated to bring harm to themselves. Since Socrates believed that wrongdoing always harmed the wrongdoer, he saw all wrongdoing as a mistake in judgment or an expression of ignorance. This is especially true in cases where a life full of wrongdoing never physically harms the wrongdoer. Socrates believed that the most pitiable of humans were those who lived under the delusion that their wrongdoing benefited them. According to Socrates, the successful tyrant who is able to do great wrong for many years without ever being held accountable, was the most terribly harmed of all human beings. Socrates believed that doing injustice made us less just and diminished our character. For Socrates, the only harm in life comes through our own wrongdoing. When we see people knowingly doing wrong to others, they are not cognizant of the harm that their wrongdoing brings upon themselves. So it is that even the most flagrant examples of willful human wrongdoing, which may seem to contradict Socrates’ belief, actually confirm Socrates belief by being examples of our instinct to benefit ourselves misguided by ignorance. If all wrongdoing harms the wrongdoer and all people make decisions only to benefit themselves, then all people commit wrongdoing through ignorance and not through a will to do wrong.




I had a utilitarian, consequentialist reading of Nietzsche/didn't fully understand him which led me to a decade of suffering (i.e. a reading from the perspective that we should act in such a way that our actions will result in the greatest good for the greatest number of people). For Nietzsche, an objection would have been yet another example of mankind attempting to impose arbitrary moral standards onto a universe in which none objectively exist. Nietzsche was less interested in the imaginary moral constructs mankind might use to reduce suffering and more interested in discovering the truth of existence.

The universe has no perception of morality.  I need to wary of external sources of virtues and have to come up with my own set of values and morals.



BEHAVIORAL ECONOMICS / FINANCE

Friday, December 22, 2017

Cryptos VS Stocks, why i'm leaving CryptoTrading but staying as an investor

Cryptos vs Stocks

Overall

I won't be trading cryptos.  This will be it--in short, the time i'm spending on currencies is time away from refining my equities trading skills.

Returns

Cryptos are undeniably the hottest sector and is reminiscent of the 2000 Internet bubble.  For long-term investors, this might not end well for a lot of inexperienced investors/traders.  However, for traders that are risk averse-oriented that's capturing a slice of the big ass opportunity that's the ongoing bubble--so much opportunity everywhere to easily make 100-500% of your position size which is INSANE.  The downside is that having a huge position size on some of the smaller-known altcoins can result in a loss of 30-50% in a day or two.

Stocks on the other hand, i'm only reasonably expecting to grab anywhere of 3%-8% of a 30% move.  I am able to control my risk much more with stocks because the platforms I use for stocks are much more mature and has hotkey capabilities.

It really is a struggle NOT to want the returns of crypto trading.  The returns far outweigh the risk involved ESPECIALLY if I am participating in pump and dump groups that routinely manipulate these unregulated markets.  The returns of cryptos far exceed that of stocks but there is one con that I will explain further below.

Liquidity

Anything on the top 20 actually has enough liquidity to support the type of trading I do.  When I was in a couple of groups that try to spot pump groups for alt coins--the $volume for some of the picks sometimes is barely 1million.  Hell yes its easy money to make x5-x10 of your money in a day or two but coupled with the fact that I don't like pump groups--i'm fine not trading false hype like this because I'm already at the point i'm primarily not trading for money anyways.  In short--finding pumps or even manipulating the market to lure in outside cash from new investor/traders is fun and all, but it's not my cup of tea.

TIME

This is pretty much what catches and reels me in.  Crypto market is 24/7 and trying to find pumps is a 25/7 job.  Yes, it's a 25 hour job because it takes a lot more than what I currently have in a day to be able to track and keep in touch with the smaller altcoin market somewhat.  Unless i'm in a group where we will be clearing out the bid or ask to wipe out weak hands--most of the time in cryptos is just waiting since you do not necessarily know exactly when the volume will be coming in.  So like i said--most of the time is spent waiting.. Trading is patience.. but If i had a choice between finding a market that has a consistent time day after day where the volume is high and a specific time--i'll choose that even if it has less returns.

Swing trading cryptos--I can do and really is what I've been doing in cryptos.

vs Stocks-- Stocks has a market open and a market close.  The good thing about the stock market is that fact that during the open--a TON of volume is pushed through everyday at 930am-10am.  I can literally trade for 10minutes up to 1-2hrs max and call it a day.  The returns will be far inferior than that of the crypto market--but like I said, I trade not for the sole reason of the money anyways.

But can't I just trade cryptos--make a million then quit it entirely?  Yes, but it was never about the million for me anyways.

There are plenty of markets out there outside of the crypto market that I can make a million dollars from.  Crypto market is just another asset class in which a portfolio can be diversified into.

LTC Short success, LTC short chased and multiple lesson day

Last Crypto Trading/LTC

There's a lot of good lessons here.  Some revisits prior lessons, some reinforces new concepts/rules just learned and some new ones that I've just come upon.

1)  LTC Swing Lessons-- I saw signs of LTC toppinng out at 420, this was a deja vu from the ETH trade back in JUNE.. I initiated profit taking and sold 1/4 size at an avg exit for 360 with an avg entry of 70.  There was no clarity and conviction on exactly how much profit taking I was going to take therefore no further profit taking or trailing stops were put into place.




2)  LTC Short Scalp-- I decided to scalp some stoploss/panic selling.  I ended up on a short position too early.  Shorting in currency aren't as risky as stocks since you do not start with a negative position that you HAVE to cover at a later time--because of this false confidence, I let it go a little bit against me.  Once it went back my way and broke 250, I started buying my intial position back in for a 10% profit.
I have to be careful shorting too early, I was early by 25$.  I need to develop more patience on waiting for a better short entry.




3)  LTC Swing Stop Fail/Chased Scalp Short Fail/Buying the Panic Fail-- When I checked how LTC was doing, I saw it had broke through 200 and was at 170.  The position size I had was what I though was manageable--but the speed it broke through 200 and the want of scalping it pushed me into a trade.  At first I didn't check how far the panic had already been in and experienced a FEAR OF LOSS.  I was able to subconsciously take a breather and regained composure.  However, unlike what my system for trading equities, I did not pre-define my risk going into my short and I was just going off my gut instinct that it had a little bit more to go.

I chased shorting LTC at 170 looking for a 150 breakdown and more panic selling.  It broke 150 and I sold my Longterm position at once it broke 150 as well.  Earlier before doing this blog post I thought it was because I got scared out of my position/FEAR OF LOSS but now that I'm doing my AAR--the reason I sold wasn't because of FEAR but was of GREED--I wanted to ADD to my position.

My LTC position was only 25% of my whole crypto porftolio that I have already accepted that I can lose getting wiped out completely--the reason I sold all at 150 was to add to my existing short position.  It was a crazy battle between buyers and sellers at 150 with the spread widening up to $30.  I knew this was the bottom but I had frozen--Instead of getting back into LTC I hesitated as it rose.  Once it hit 170 I should've wen't back in breakeven or at least at 200 where my mental short stop was.  But I didn't do anything--eventually I applied my rule where if I broke a rule today, I wouldn't trade anymore.  That's at least one thing I did right today.  It's at 250 now by the time I'm writing this post.. 60% gain in 1hr is what I missed out on.  I have to tell myself it's ok though--there'll be more opportunities in the future.

4)  Don't mix trading capitals that have different time horizons--don't mix day trading, swing trading, investments together.  What can be a buy signal in one time frame can be a sell signal in another.  Planning helps lol.. Since there was no clarity and distinction between my positions--I sold my long LTC position inadvertently along with the portion I was scalping with.

5)  Don't have any distractions while trading.
Since this wasn't stocks, i've been alot more lenient/flexible with a few of my old rules.  In a 15second window I wasn't looking--I missed vital information of LTC bottoming out at 150.  






Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Weekly Review

From Last Week:
- Finished my EPR
- Had to postpone what was planned for more important family matters

Schedule for the Upcoming Weeks
Sunday
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Monday
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Tuesday
- Finish reading BOOK
- Fly back to St. Louis

Wednesday
- FINISH reading The Disciplined Trader
- Get back into the working rhythm/routine
- Verify If I have Friday off or not for the TAP 2 day SBA Track

Thursday
- 2 day track or OFF DAY/Finish reading BOOK or MISC

Friday
- 2 day track or Finish reading BOOK

Saturday
- Finish reading BOOK / 1 WEBINAR

GOAL:
BOOK
- FINISH The Disciplined Trader

MISC
- Increase reading to 60mins on ACCEPTANCE/Conscious Listening/Mindfulness/Increasing Attention and Focus


DECEMBER 24-30
- WEBINARS / Prep Crypto Trading / Prep Stock Trading

JANUARY 7-JANUARY 13
- WEBINARS / Series of Trading

JANUARY 14-JANUARY 20
- WEBINARS / Series of Trading

JANUARY 21-JANUARY 27
- WEBINARS / Series of Trading

JANUARY 28-FEBRUARY 3
- WEBINARS / Series of Trading


Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Make bed
- 5 mins Headspace / 5mins Meditate
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Make bed
- 5 mins Headspace / 5mins Meditate
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch / Physical Therapy / Morning Jog

Anything goes on my off day

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."






--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

3) Managing Mind
- Regular Meditations
- Objectivity Exercises

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

*** ACCEPTANCE ***

Perception, Execution, Accumulation



There are two dominant themes that form the foundation for this approach.  The first we have already briefly covered, that you create the market that you experience in your own mind based on your beliefs, perceptions, intents, and rules. And, second, your trading results will be a function of the degree of skills you develop in three primary areas: perception, or your ability to perceive opportunity; execution, or your ability to execute a trade; and accumulation, or your ability to allow your account balance to grow over a period of time or series of trades.

EXECUTING YOUR TRADES

Your ability to execute your trades is a function of the amount of fear you generate or the lack of it. Fear is always the result of your beliefs about the threatening nature of the environment. What could be threatening about the market? Nothing, if you had the confidence and completely trusted
yourself to act appropriately under any given set of market conditions. Essentially, what you fear is not the markets but rather your inability to do what you need to do, when you need to do it, without hesitation

In your relationship with the markets you had to learn what to fear. What you learned to fear was a result of whatever you did that caused pain. Your pain was the result of your not knowing what to do next that resulted in an outcome you neither expected nor intended. In the market environment you are free to act or not to act; the markets cannot do anything to you that you don't allow, even if it is out of ignorance or a complete sense of powerlessness.

The effects of fear on one's behavior are obvious, limiting one to the point of complete immobility. If you can't execute your trades properly, even when you perceive the most perfect opportunity, it is because you have not released yourself from the pain contained in the memories of past trading experiences and because you still don't trust yourself to act appropriately in any given set of conditions. If you did, there would be no fear or immobility.

ACCUMULATING PROFITS

Your degree of self-valuation will regulate how much money you will give yourself (the market doesn't give you the money, you give it to yourself based on your ability to perceive opportunity and execute a trade) out of the maximum potential available or perceivable at any given moment or time frame perspective. Regardless of the depth of understanding you have of market behavior or what you consciously intend, you will only "give" yourself the amount of money that corresponds to your level of selfvaluation. This concept can be explained with a simple illustration. If you perceive an opportunity, based on your definition or what market conditions constitute an opportunity, and do not follow through by executing a trade, what stopped you? In my mind, there can be only two possible reasons. You were either immobilized by the fear of failure or you are struggling with a belief (value) system that says you don't deserve the money. Otherwise, you would have acted on your perception.

SELF-ACCEPTANCE

The second theme that provides a foundation for the belief system I am offering is that personal transformation, growth, and learning new skills are a function of self-acceptance. Your intent of learning a new skill or way of expressing yourself is in essence an attempt to create a new dimension of yourself. It is a goal you have projected out into the future that you will then attempt to fulfill by growing into it. The market will quite naturally make you face what is inside of you on a moment-to-moment basis. What is inside of you could be confidence or fear, a perception of opportunity or loss, restraint or uncontrollable greed, objectivity or illusion. The market just reflects these mental conditions, it does not create them. Therefore, to grow into a new expression of yourself (fulfill your goal of being a more successful trader), you will need to learn how to accept the existence of any of these negative mental conditions and the psychological components that create them. Cultivating a belief in accepting whatever you find inside of yourself will give you the base you need to work from to change these conditions.

STUFF

What I intend to demonstrate in the following chapters is even thoughyou cannot turn your eyes inward to actually see these mental componentparts of the mental environment, it doesn't make them any less real. Besides,it isn't necessary to turn our eyes inward because we can just as easily learn to define what is inside of our mental environment by what we see and experience in the outside physical environment. By making the connection between what we believe and what we experience, it will be a lot easier to change what we experience by learning how to manipulate our beliefs. We will examine the nature of beliefs and how they act as environmental information management systems. I will demonstrate how our individual beliefs about the nature of the market, and our expectations of what it will do next, manage and control the type and quality of information we perceive about it. By breaking down the dynamics of perception, you will be able to identify the various ways in which all of us place mental limitations on the market's behavior and how these limitations cause us to distort market information. We will thoroughly explore the nature of fear and how it compels all of us to act without a perception of choice. The predominate underlying force behind most traders' actions causing prices to move is fear—the fear of missing out (competing for the supply) and the fear of loss. If you really want to understand the market's behavior to anticipate what it will do next, then you will first have to learn about and understand the underlying forces beneath your own behavior and how you process and manage information. When you understand how any number of typical market-related fears operate in your life and learn to release yourself from them, you will, in effect, be separating yourself from the "crowd." When you separate yourself from the "crowd" and expand what you know about the forces affecting your behavior to encompass the group, it will be much easier to anticipate what the group will do because they will merely represent a larger (collective) version of the way you used to be. In other words, you will know how other traders will behave before they do because you will be able to observe them from a detached perspective—due to your having evolved beyond the choiceless state of operating out of fear.

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

TRADING SKILLS/Psychology + Finding Oneself vs Being understood

Unrealistic expectations cause us to define/interpret and therefore perceive market information as threatening.
- Being Wrong
- Losing
- Missing Out
- Leaving Money on the Table

Fear will cause us to focus on the object of our fear so that we end up creating the experience we are trying to avoid.

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The one last bastion that I need to overcome to be a consistent trader is something that I feel has plagued me my whole life.  Growing up I knew and felt that I was different, now I don't mean that in the sense that I am superior or better than the others (even though I felt that way at the time) but over time--just different.  How I see the world vs how majority of others see the world is where my internal conflicts arise from which resulted in me achieving drastically "less than what my potential" could be.

Children have a relatively strong imagination vs adults.  They are more in touch with nature and with God and is commonly depicted as such.  The reason for this is that as children grow up, they are conditioned to such a way to be more "rational", less imaginative, and into thinking how to live inside "human constructs" that society creates.  If you don't adapt to society's or parents standards/expectations-- you are diagnosed with a mental disorder which ends up a self-fulfilling prophecy in most of the cases.

Our current science/psychology and developmental theories are very refined from how we though a 100yrs ago, but it's not exact/can still be further refined and this is where it falls apart and exactly how disorders are created.  We've created the illusion of disorder where there was no disorder in the first place.  In my case, majority of mental health personnel i've talked to would revert to their "studies/knowledge/degree" and become biased in their assessments which in turn would cause them to not see me for what I am.  I'm not saying this is "wrong" because there's really no right or wrong in life--it's how one perceives it and usually it's just the opposite side of the same coin/concept.

Getting back on topic, the rationalists would most of the time have a high probability of them telling me that growing up--I was still trying to find my place and figure out who I was in life.  This falls in line with how majority of people are but I didn't fall in that category.  Most people are just lost in life who pretends to know what it is that they are doing.  They give up pursuing their childhood goals and dreams and start to reason and justify that they are now an "adult" and have to live a certain way that opposes their hearts desires.  This is where their mind asserts control over their consciousness and some live their whole lives lost with the rationale that this is how society wants them to live their life so they are indeed living a good life.  And this is where disorders starts, internal conflicts between the heart and mind that causes people to turn to things/objects/actions/addictions that "numbs" the brain temporarily--just enough so that they can function yet again to society's wants and needs.  What's worse is those not financially knowledgeable/disciplined will fall into a similar cycle which is very, very hard to get out of unless they can first psychologically get out of it first--The Rat Race.  Personal Finance was never about numbers or money--it's about human behavior.

For me it was never about "growing up" into how society thinks, but me losing who I was into something that was "socially acceptable".  The "smarter and rationally knowledgeable" I get--the more dumber I got in my irrationality, imagination and intuition skills--and I saw/felt that.  Society does not fully accept/understand "crazy" people unfortunately but it is the imaginative people of today which without doubt shapes society's tomorrow.

I had always known who I was through a priori.  It was never about me finding out who I am, but what it was--was me trying to have society/others try to understand me which I HAVE to understand that this will never happen.  I have visions that society just cannot see.  I need to come to terms that Society will never be able to accept me--I just need to accept them.

*Side note: I've always noticed people in life trying to figure/think me out.  I've sometimes said don't think about how I think--then you'll understand me.  They'll give me a weird face that I'll laugh at internally.  It's sad but I've always known that they don't understand me, I just never accepted it.

Simpler terms, I am someone who can see and think outside of human constructs/societies limitations/box (if there ever was one).  But i'm always conflicted on why so very few can see that.  On a similar note, in the past i've always argued and tried to explain to my older sister Charlotte that we as a family is different than the rest of other people in terms of intelligence/knowledge but she perceives that she is just normal and average compared to other people.  It's funny that I try to show her that but at the same time not fully embodying/accept the concept i'm trying to show her.  This is where I need to fully embrace that--because in short, it shows up in my trading.

I've been doing alot of  Acceptance and Commitment therapy and applying mindfulness techniques to combat this internal conflict.  Increasing my communication skills/language/active listening skills has also shortened the gap between being able to explain how/what I am in ways the others can understand.  In short, I am a metaphysician, mathematician who happens to love dabbling in Theroretical and Quantum Physics as well as logic.  If i'm ever able to overcome this last psychological barrier that i've noticed i keep running into--this will set of a chain of events that are already deterministic that I will become a disciplined, consistent and profitable trader.. i.e. ATM machine ka-ching ka-ching !!

Sunday, December 3, 2017

Weekly Review

From Last Week:
- Fun Thanksgiving with fam
- Halted studying during holiday week

- Finished New Rules of Pennystock (8hrs)
- No Webinars yet
- No EPR Bullets yet
- Got alot of good Trading Psychology down though (8hrs)

Schedule for the Upcoming Weeks
Sunday
- Finish B1/B2's LOC/MFR
- 5 EPR Bullets
- 2-3 Webinars

Monday
- 5 EPR Bullets
- 2-3 Webinars
- VA Appt

Tuesday
- FINISH EPR
- 2-3 Webinars

Wednesday
- FINISH Whatever else
- 2-3 Webinars

Thursday
- MUST COMPLETE Trading system/process
- 3-4 Webinars/Reintegrate with the Markets

Friday
- Reintegrate with the Markets/Platforms
- WEBINARS !!

Saturday
- WEBINARS !!!

GOAL:
- WEBINARS !!!
- Increase reading on ACCEPTANCE
- Increase reading on Conscious Listening/Mindfulness/Increasing Attention and Focus

DECEMBER 3-9
- WEBINARS

DECEMBER 10-16
- WEBINARS / Tracking Market

DECEMBER 17-23
- WEBINARS / Start Trading


Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

Anything goes on my off day

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."






--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

3) Managing Mind
- Regular Meditations
- Objectivity Exercises

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

*** ACCEPTANCE ***

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Nicene Creed, Fighting Dogma,

The original version is as follows:

We believe in one God, the Father Almighty, Maker of all things visible and invisible.

At mass today we use the Nicene-Constantinopolitan profession of faith.

I believe in one God, Father Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth, and of all things visible and invisible.

Do you see a difference? One can say, oh it's a tiny difference but that tiny difference has huge implications that can result in possibly mind-controlling a huge population or accumulating massive amounts of wealth--all through a simple addition or redaction of words.

Ever heard of the telephone game or chinese whispers?  Errors typically accumulate in the translations and re-tellings so what is being taught as dogma today differs significantly from that of the God's original message.

For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.. We are all part of God, I am a part of God.  Christ was part of God, but somewhere along the line we started to teach that Christ was God.  By that same logic, I am God--but I know i'm not.  Christ was a human and a prophet--he is not God but a part of God.  Muhammed is not God but a part of him.  Buddha is not God but a part of him.

Islam is a peaceful religion? Christianity is a peaceful religion?  It can be but it's hijacked by people that contradicts the original teachings.  Pope Urban II? Thou shall not kill.. unless it's a non-christian.. Let's go kill in God's will!!

It saddening to see so many people mindwashed of the human constructs that the Roman Catholic Church.  No one church or religion is better than the other--they're just different.  But the lost followers of a specific faith will always profess their religion's superiority over another.  The average person's mind only allows them to think in good or bad, right or wrong but God is both.  Only when consciousness transcends over the mind do they see/hear God.

There is still truth in the Bible, Koran, Torah--however, there is so much blasphemy and human constructs in the Bible that was inserted by humans (Some with good intentions and others that don't) that it is very hard for the populace to be able to read beneath the words and beyond the voices.

**
At a young age, we are capable of listening to the words the universe speaks--far before the illusions and human constructs society casts on us.  Do not lose this - Me.

Whether a man thinks he can, or he thinks he can't--He is right. - Henry Ford

The "smarter" we get in this reality, the higher probability of us losing touch with the other dimensions.  We are multi-dimensional beings but with perceptions that are limited to the four dimensions within our physical plane.  Only when we close our eyes, we see better; close our ears, hear better and close our minds, do we understand Truth. - Me

"I believe in intuitions and inspirations. I sometimes feel that I am right. I do not know that I am. When two expeditions of scientists...went forth to test my theory of relativity, I was convinced that their conclusions would tally with my hypothesis. I was not surprised when the eclipse of May 29, 1919, confirmed my intuitions. I would have been surprised if I had been wrong."  - Albert Einstein

"I am enough of the artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world." - Albert Einstein

The Intuitive Mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift. - Albert Einstein

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Nature vs Nurture, Free will vs Destiny, Schrodinger's Cat/Quantum Decoherence

On the nature vs nurture debate, there's so many people on both sides saying there side is true but I've always sat on the sidelines because the way I see it.  Why not both?  But I never noticed that I didn't apply the same intuition that I have when it comes to Free Will vs Determinism.

I've forced myself to choose a side on that debate even though my intuition says otherwise.  I've always compared my life as a book already written out--that I'm just living out my life that's written as I flip through the pages but in my gut I knew it wasn't fully correct.  I've refined my saying to more accurately represent what I see.

"My life follows a book that is already written out, but at each moment where a decision or choice must be made--I can choose to either keep following the book that is already written or follow a whole new book." -me

Now some people will say but that's free will !!  With careful observation, there's a nuance in it which gives it a whole new paradigm.  It's not free will but at the same time, it's not destiny either.  And this is how I view the world.  The reason why I couldn't seam well with society and human constructs is that the universe is made to be endless but it is human to quantify, categorize or deconstruct reality so that we can understand it.  But how mainstream society do it scientifically ironically pushes society further away from the truth it until we accept that there are other ways than just through empirical methods or experience.

Now are "Laws of physics" are being challenged in the quantum level.  I've always had this feeling in the past that how science is right now is a like a huge jigsaw puzzle--we make "laws and theories" and all the pieces thus far has fit, but what happens to us when we get to the point where the last piece DOES NOT FIT (and this happens alot in life). We now have to amend our "laws", It's always bothered me because the masses see the world in black and white while I see it as gray.  I wish someone had told me that philosophers and physicists in the past have already tackled this problem of induction and it could have saved me from going into a huge depression.

Our laws of physics can only take us so much but majority of professors that's not updated into the latest research will deny you that and look down on you cause your just a kid.  Our laws of reasoning can only take you so much since the more you know, the less you know but adults will tell you you're just a kid you don't know anything.  People don't realize that the more you get into human constructs like getting a degree, getting a good job, making money, finding success--the less and further you are to understanding the universe/reality.  Now that I'm an "adult" somewhat-- I still hold the same view on how the universe is and how reality is.  Thankfully, learning more about quantum mechanics gives me relief that what and how I see reality and the universe is in line with how science and even religion is heading towards.  Am I different? Not really, I'm both different and same--but that doesn't make sense.  Unfortunately, if you're trying to make sense out of it, you never will.  Some people think inside the box, some people are gifted to see outside the box.. But only when you see that there is no box--is when you'll be able to make "sense" of what I see and feel.

I feel that the universe is a superposition of all possible equations, but only when either you make a conscious choice/observation does it decohere into "reality".  My life so far can be summed into Schrodinger's Cat.  Some people think schrodinger's cat is dead, some say it's alive.. I say it's both-- and that's probably why I've struggled in the past.  99.99% of the world will NEVER be able to relate to me and I should just accept that so I can finally get out of this depression once and for all and try to grow this human construct called "wealth".

The Intuitive Mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant.  We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.  - Albert Einstein

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Weekly Review

From Last Week:
- Fun Thanksgiving with fam
- Halted studying during holiday week

Schedule for the Upcoming Weeks
Sunday
- New Rules of Pennystocking DVD 2
- Finish B1's LOC/MFR
- 2 EPR Bullets

Monday
- New Rules of Pennystocking DVD 3
- Finish B2's LOC
- 2 EPR Bullets

Tuesday
- New Rules of Pennystocking DVD 4
- 2 EPR Bullets

Wednesday
- New Rules of Pennystocking DVD 4
- 2 EPR Bullets

Thursday
- New Rules of Pennystocking DVD 5/6

Friday
- WEBINARS !!!

Saturday
- WEBINARS !!!

GOAL:
- Finish New Rules of Pennystocking and get started on Webinars
- Increase reading on Conscious Listening/Mindfulness/Increasing Attention and Focus

DECEMBER 3-9
- WEBINARS

DECEMBER 10-16
- WEBINARS / Tracking Market

DECEMBER 17-23
- WEBINARS / Start Trading


Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

Anything goes on my off day

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."






--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

3) Managing Mind
- Regular Meditations
- Objectivity Exercises

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

*** ACCEPTANCE ***

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Weekly Review

From Last 2 Weeks:
- Passed DPE 99.7%
- Finished Learn Level II
- 2 hrs into New Rules of Pennystocking

Schedule for the Upcoming Weeks

- This next week is Thanksgiving week and will have a light schedule for studying.  I will try to finish New Rules of Pennystocking if I can.
- After I'm done, Goal is to re-watch trading tickers and then get caught up on webinars.
- Increase reading on Conscious Listening/Mindfulness/Increasing Attention and Focus


GOAL:
- Finish New Rules of Pennnystocking


Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

Anything goes on my off day

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."






--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

3) Managing Mind
- Regular Meditations
- Objectivity Exercises

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

*** ACCEPTANCE ***

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Weekly Review

From Last Week:
Didn't do anything stocks related at all.  I did brush up on mindfulness/meditating/communication+listening skills.

Bout to finish the Alchemist, it's nice.. mostly about going for your destiny but it's main focus is something im aware of.  The side minute details however are really good to read.

Schedule for the Upcoming Week

- The next two weeks be very light with very minimum expectation.  I have my DPE coming up next week so whatever I can study is a bonus.
- Increase reading on Conscious Listening/Mindfulness/Increasing Attention and Focus

GOAL:
- Finish Learn Level II
- Total 2.1hrs of DVDs
- Finish 1 book
- Just pass the damn DPE already


Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Mornaing Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

Anything goes on my off day

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."

--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

3) Managing Mind
- Regular Meditations
- Objectivity Exercises

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

*** ACCEPTANCE ***

Acceptance

Acceptance releases the power that your life circumstances have over you.  When things don't go your way, you don't become paralyzed by negative emotions such as anger, fear, resentment, or regret.

Acceptance nullifies judgement.  By choosing acceptance, you remind yourself that what's happening in your life is not good or bad, fair or unfair.  It just is.

This is something I never really stuck the idea or concept to the actual word when I was younger.  But I do remember speaking to a few people that it was weird that I didn't see things as good or bad--I only saw the magnitude of the effects of a person's actions from what was considered as the norm.  It's like being able to measure the amplitude from the equilibrium but without the positive or negative status UNLESS I apply what society believes to be the "right" vs the "wrong".

I do remember that my biggest confusion was when I noticed a "moral compass" that I suddenly had that I didn't before.  What was confusing to me was that I noticed that some people's "right" was other people's "wrong" and they were completely unaware of their own or other people's positions and it started to confuse me.  I never thought about it in the past, but almost everyone around me at the time is pretty much conditioned to believe that "Good" is better than "Evil" therefore biased and unable to give me feedback on what it is that I was observing.

What made it worse was that I was always with someone who had a lot of hope.  Hope is very positive and a good thing.  But blind optimism is not and is very dangerous that this person got taken advantage of a lot.  Whether he was conscious of it or not, I saw things he wasn't able to and on a business perspective, just wasn't very efficient of his resources.  Overall, his excellent resiliency and steadfast efforts makes him a very "successful" person,  just wasn't very efficient at it imo.  His definition and expectations of what makes a person "successful" is vastly different than mine.

When we are born in this world, money is of no meaning to us.  I was good with money, but I didn't really give a crap about it personally other than what it could mean to help others if I donate it.  But at some point, I started giving a crap about how much I made and it was never enough even though I never really spent a majority of it.  That's when I became aware of the love of money, The love of money is where greed starts and I started seeing it everywhere.  In finance, in healthcare, in business, everywhere.. America is a consumerist society and it is unaware of it.  Unfortunately, the business mentors I had capitalized on this and increased the overall greed instead of increasing awareness to cure this toxic mentality.  Materialism was prevalent and the world got more and more confusing to me since I couldn't understand how these "adults" and "experts" can be so blind to what's going on.  Everyone was an expert on his or her own field of a "human construct" but completely misses out on what is in front of them.  I've talked to numerous people with degrees that are experts on their field but has no idea on what life really is.  Psychologists and psychiatrists are the worst, i've only talked a very few that really gets the big picture.  So many of them try to diagnose people based on outdated theories and practices that it completely segregates outliers who "do not fall" into what they were taught thus either labeled as "crazy" or someone that needs "help"--not realizing of the possibility that they and society are the ones that needs help.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A little soul talked to God and said, "I want to experience being good and to be forgiving, what is that feeling?".  God replied, "For you to experience the good, you'd have to experience the bad as well, but there's on thing you should know."

"What is it?" the little soul sighed.

"There is no one to forgive."  God said.

Then a beautiful angel came down and said to the little soul, "I will help you."

"How will you help me?" the little soul asked.

"I will do something so unspeakable and unimaginable of so that you can forgive me." the angel answered.

"But why? Why would you do such evil things.  You, who are a Being of such utter perfection!  You, who vibrate with such a speed that it creates a Light so bright that I can hardly gaze upon you! What could cause you to want to slow down your vibration to such a speed that your bright Light would become dark and dense? What could cause you ~ who are so light that you dance upon the stars and move through the Kingdom with the speed of your thought--to come into my life and make yourself so heavy that you could do this bad thing?"

"Simple," the angel said.  "I would do it because I love you-- But I have to ask something in return."

"What is it?" the Little Soul asked.  "What can I do for you?"

"In the moment that I strike you and smite you," the angel replied, "in the moment that I do the worst to you that you could possibly imagine ~ in that very moment..."

"Yes?" the Little soul interrupted, "yes...?"

"Remember Who I Really Am." the angel said.

"Oh, I will!" cried the Little Soul, "I promise! I will always remember you as I see you right here, right now!"

"Good," said the angel, "because, you see, I will have been pretending so hard, I will have forgotten myself.  And if you do not remember me as I really am, I may not be able to remember for a very long time. And if I forget Who I Am, you may even forget Who You Are, and we will both be lost. Then we will need another soul to come along and remind us both of Who We Are."

by Neale Donald Walsch, Conversations With God

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** How I feel about religions especially Catholicism **

[Socrates:] "Since the beautiful is opposite of the ugly, they are two."
[Glaucon:] "Of course."
"And since they are two, each is one?"
"I grant that also."
"And the same account is true of the just and unjust, the good and the bad, and all the forms. Each of them is itself one, but because they manifest themselves everywhere in association with actions, bodies, and one another, each of them appears to be many."
"That's right."
"So, I draw this distinction: On one side are those you just now called lovers of sights, lovers of crafts, and practical people; on the other side are those we are now arguing about and whom one would alone call philosophers."
"How do you mean?"
"The lovers of sights and sounds like beautiful sounds, colors, shapes, and everything fashioned out of them, but their thought is unable to see and embrace the nature of the beautiful itself."
"That's for sure."
"In fact, there are very few people who would be able to reach the beautiful itself and see it by itself. Isn't that so?"
"Certainly."
"What about someone who believes in beautiful things, but doesn't believe in the beautiful itself and isn't able to follow anyone who could lead him to the knowledge of it? Don't you think he is living in a dream rather than a wakened state? Isn't this dreaming: whether asleep or awake, to think that a likeness is not a likeness but rather the thing itself that it is like?"
"I certainly think that someone who does that is dreaming."
"But someone who, to take the opposite case, believes in the beautiful itself, can see both it and the things that participate in it and doesn't believe that the participants are it or that it itself is the participants--is he living in a dream or is he awake?
"He's very much awake."
(Republic by Plato, Bk. V, 475e-476d, translation G.M.A Grube)

** How can one thing be two things at once? **


Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Weekly Review

From Last Week:
Sun/Monday - Finished TIMdicators DVD 5/6 and Learn Level II DVD 1-5

Tues - TAPS Class

Wed - TAPS Class

Thur - TAPS Class

Fri - TAPS Class

Cons for the week
- No real exercise days
- Didn't complete my planned DVD hours

Pros
- Am behind on DVD Hours but increased my communication skills and listening skills "Vital for trading".  After sitting down with a very powerful psychotherapist, It feels like whats been bothering my life has been calmed down somewhat.  I will have a post detailing more on this in the next week or so.

Finished The Untethered Soul, will be boosting up my reading to 1 book a week after my DPE is done.

Schedule for the Upcoming Week

- The next two weeks be very light with very minimum expectation.  I have my DPE coming up in 2 weeks so whatever I can study is a bonus.
- Chip away on my goals one day at a time

GOAL:
- Finish Learn Level II
- Total 2.1-20+hrs of DVDs (8.5Hours Last week*)
- Get Started or Finish on New Rules of Pennystocking



Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Mornaing Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

Anything goes on my off day

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."

--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

3) Managing Mind
- Regular Meditations
- Objectivity Exercises

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Weekly Review

Misc Blogging
Wed/Thur - Chose to finish Power of Now and did the posts prior to this instead of getting some hours into the DVD in.

Fri - Homebodied? it... it was a nice day away from things..

Sat - Got 1 DVD in and got halfway through The Untethered Soul.

Finished Tim Fundamentals Part Deux DVD 3/4
Finished TIMdicators DVD 1/2/3/4

16hrs 10mins DVDs Finished / Finished last 1/2 of Power of Now / Finshed 1/2 of The Untethered Soul.

Cons for the week
- No real exercise days
- Not really a con but traded 2 days of DVD watching into finishing the book I was behind on.

Pros
- Even though I had 3 days where I didn't watch DVD's.  I still managed to get ~16hrs in.

"Once I have a system, the only thing that matters is the six inches between my ears..."


I've got a hectic schedule with my 6am-6pm filled with traveling to this mandatory 1 week Transition Assistance Program at the base so it'll be a light week.  Then in 3 weeks I have my Annual DPE that will cut into my study schedule as well.

Schedule for the Upcoming Weeks
Sunday
Finish TIMdicators DVD 5/6

Monday
Learn Level II DVD 1/2

Tuesday
Learn Level II DVD 3/4

Wednesday
Learn Level II DVD 5/6

Thursday
Finish/Learn Level II DVD 7/8

Friday
Start New Rules of Pennystocking DVD (My Last DVD!!! 19hrs long though)


GOAL:
Finish TIMdicators
- Finish Learn Level II
- Finish The Untethered Soul
- Total 11.3hrs of DVDs and 1 Book (16.1hrs Last week*)
- Get Started on New Rules of Pennystocking



Habits Update

Rituals (For Work Days)
As soon as I wake up (Mornaing Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

On the road to work
- 30mins of Audiobook

Once I have downtime at work
- Challenge Content

On the road from work
- 30mins of Audiobook

As soon as I get home (In progress)
- Study 0700 - 1030, 5min Journal/Meditation
- Bed routine by 1120 Asleep by 1200

Rituals (For Off Days)
As soon as I wake up (Morning Ritual)
- Drink Water/Take Vitamins
- Floss/Brush Teeth/Listerine
- Record Blood Pressure/5min Journal/Plan out my day
- Stretch Phys. Therapy Regimen

Anything goes on my off day




--------------------------- For December -------------------------------
**** Gamblers think about profits, Traders think about Risk ****
Shifting my attitude/mindset from making money and towards:

1) Risk Management
- Know risk prior to trade
- Know stop loss prior to trade
- Size position accordingly to the stop loss

2) Managing Emotions
- No more zombie trading
- No more revenge trading

Mandatory Weekly Goals....
A) Zero (0) Zombie trades
B) Zero (0) Revenge trades
C) Trade only quality/Go-To-Setups.. (Think retired trader)

** Something I want to do in the future--Watch a stock's price action with NO indicators


Rule: If I have either 1 zombie trade or 1 revenge trade during February, I will sit out from trading for a mandatory 1 week cooling off. This will be a negative incentive that will turn me off from making those type of trades since almost all my motivation and raison d'ĂȘtre currently is daytrading.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Achieving higher dimensions

Picture a tablet, whether it's iOS or Android it doesn't matter.  Now picture a Strong PC with the best processor and graphics card, souped up with the fastest Hard Drive.

Tablet = Lower dimension

PC = Higher dimension

Now, picture using the tablet to "connect remotely" to the PC.  The tablet itself is vastly inferior to the PC's capabilities due to it's physical properties, but now that it's remotely connected to the PC, the tablet can tap into the PC's resources to achieve a higher processing capability than it physically can by itself.

I cannot run a PC game using a tablet, it's just too weak.  But if i leave my computer on at home, and connect to it using the tablet at Starbucks, use a bluetooth mouse/keyboard with my tablet--I can virtually play a PC game "on" my tablet. Physically, i'm not playing the PC game on the tablet, i'm playing it through the tablet that is remotely connected to a PC at home.  But information wise, I AM playing a PC game on my tablet. 

It's so weird because in physics, it's exactly how lower dimensions can interact with higher dimensions or how humans can interact with higher dimensions that we are supposedly "incapable" of comprehending.  But that's where the link is, our minds are stuck in this dimension--to "comprehend" is to restrict ourselves to the physical realm.  To access higher dimensions, we have to reach out by not using our mind but of other ways.

What is reality? This physical realm for 3 dimensions + time or something we call SpaceTime or is it it the information or thought that i'm receiving from the spacetime?  This is why I think we exist not in just the dimensions of space and time but of other dimensions as well at least our "consciousness" is what exists simultaneously withing the dimensions we know and our portal to the "higher realms".

Anyways, I thought this was pretty awesome example of how the M-theory and membrane theory works.  Can't wait for what else quantum mechanics can rediscover for us.

Study habits, GRIT, Resilience, Profitable Trading Systems

Asked my sister a few questions that I've already guessed what the answers were going to be somewhat.  It was nice hearing it from her though so it wasn't me guessing probabilities or my mind telling me what the real "truth" was.

I've always felt that we think alike but we have our differences due to how our life experiences and goals are.  Funny/expected but at the same time creepy to hear that our study habits/patterns/preferences are exactly the same, so what was the reason that she was able to adapt from high school/college/med school where I failed going into high school/college > business life?

High school was easy for us.. College was easy for us.. Med school was NOT EASY for her but with GRIT and RESILIENCY she was able to adapt to what was needed to get through med school.  She had a goal but she didn't relish in the goal more than she focused on the process to get to it.  When she studied, she naturally got A's but that wasn't the main motivation to why she studied in the first place.  When I asked the question "what got you through?".  Her response was similar to responses of those who in studies was assessed to just happened to have a high amount of "Grit".

High school was easy for me.. College was easy for me.. Working/Self-employed status/Entrepreneurship was easy to learn and understand but NOT EASY to live through and apply.  When I was younger, whether I studied or not.. I'd get "A's".  When things got harder after college, when I "studied", it was so that I can get that "A".  Instead on focusing on the "process" of getting an "A", I lived the result instead--causing my productivity and results to collapse.  What made it worse was whenever I wasn't reaching my "personal expectations" or other people's "expectations of me", instead of getting back up and being resilient.-- I kept digging myself deeper and deeper into a hole til I mentally collapsed.

Don't tell your kid they're smart, instead praise them on their hardworking ethic or their discipline.  Telling them they're smart has a chance they'd actually believe it (delusional) and put little value on what it really takes to be "successful" which are grit, resiliency, discipline, etc.

I wish I knew the difference when I was younger.. IQ is not a measure of "smartness" or "subject-matter expert".  When I finally realized that I am not like majority of people and that I have a very high IQ is when I came to terms that IQ is OVERRATED, as more recent studies shows and seeing how forward-thinking companies hire.  Grit, overall ability to work in a team and social/emotional IQ synergy are bigger factors to better results than IQ ever was or will be.

Don't constantly compare others to your kids or your kids to others.  Comparing has its value of measuring your progress or having a goal to strive for but constantly comparing how others are more "successful" might cause your kid to have a sense of lacking something when they're fine the way they are.

Teach EXCELLENCE to your kids.  Aim or strive high but never push PERFECTION, instead push for excellence.  Humans naturally make mistakes and mistakes are vital for learning.

Don't get me wrong, this isn't a stab at parents out there.  I was also delusional and let my mind control me to the point that I guess I was "depressed".  I still see things and hear things but thankfully i'm grounded to this reality somehow and don't fall to other side like those i've seen with full blown mania.  This is just something to accept as it is and move forward from it.  Increasing awareness really was a big thing it kinda sucks because I have a troop that I know is depressed but is hard for him to realize that he's depressed.  I'm resorting to the mental health clinic last since I know how easy they are to push meds in the military instead of teaching him how to deal with it.

It's sad that we're still teaching Id, Ego, SuperEgo and it needs to be removed from books.  Freud was on to something (albeit completely off) when he came up with it but the Greeks, Romans, Hindus, Buddhists, Native Americans, others (I haven't studied anything middle eastern, african, etc) have already had come up with a much more refined explanation of the human psyche. Most of his shit, we've moved on from--let's move on from id, ego, superego cause this bullshit is still what we base psychoanalysis on.. But it is what it is, this is one of the things i've fought against mentally for years but just come to accept which is majority and a great majority of people are stupid (including cough mental health professors who flunked me) relative to meeeeeeeeeee ;D.  Meds aren't the solution for everything and mental health at Tinker AFB/Kadena AB is shit.

Why are all this important?  There are no trading systems that are 100%.  Even the best profitable traders like George Soros are happy with 60% edge or even 51%.  But growing up, you have been conditioned that anything less than 90% is a FAIL or if you aren't #1 you have failed.  Don't aim for PERFECTION, instead aim for EXCELLENCE.  You will FAIL and make mistakes in trading, but as long as you limit your risk and let your profits run-- you will be profitable.

"Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."  - Nietzche

When I stare into the stock market, its like looking at a mirror.  It's so strange, i've heard someone say it before but what you are as a person is what the stock market will spit back at you.  If your a disciplined person, your trades will be disciplined; if your messed up in the head, your trades will also be messed up.  I've got alot of work to do..


I am not my emotions, I am not my mind, I am.

It's still so weird when I think back on how I was pre-high school.  I was "seeing" things that other people couldn't see.  What made it worse was that I couldn't communicate it to others to where they might've at least had a chance to understand what it was I was trying to say.  It made me so frustrated that I got so mad at the world for being so stupid not knowing at that time that my own lack of understanding of what I had and lack of communication skills added to the madness.

One thing was clear though, I became scared of my mind.  I was aware of it but did not fully accept it since I was so scared to face it.  I know i have it because since 6th grade when it first hit me, I started to have an extreme phobia of fiction books-- I've stopped watching TV and if I do watch a series of some sort, I get unbearable pain trying to watch the last episodes.  I'm so scared to tap into my mind because I know how powerful it can be and I'm scared that I might go crazy.  The mind likes to play tricks and I felt it was trying to control me.  It wasn't me, I knew it wasn't me but it keeps thinking on it's own and influencing me.  Thoughts start to rush and I start thinking of things that wasn't real but it felt so real.  They're just thoughts but they start to have an impact on my physical body,  How is that possible??  With just a small change of how I think, I have pains in my core, start hearing things, start seeing things, heart rate speeds up, time can slow down, i start "seeing" glimpses of the future.. it's so scary, i couldn't figure out what was going on.. ** (Back to present) I was able to pause right before I started a trade back in December, I was so aware of what I was about to do that I took my pulse right before I initiated the trade. 85bpm.. I clicked BUY and got into the trade-- my heart rate nearly double to 150 in just a few seconds.. that is insane, the only difference was that in me knowing I was "IN" a trade caused my heart rate to speed up..**

Whatever it was, I ignored it for so long.. I became unhappy and emotional to what was going on at that time.  I couldn't communicate effectively to others what it was that I was seeing on how the things weren't right.  To counteract the unhappiness, I started to study Friedrich Nietzche and fell into a nihilistic view.  I didn't know at the time but my mind had already taken over.  On the outside I was on track with life goals, after i finished nursing and got my 1st job-- I was completing my BSN, have my Life/health/property/casualty insurance licenses, have my securities license, and was just about to take the Texas Realtor Exam.  I was making 80k/yr as a new RN and was about to get another jump to 90k/yr in another 6months.  This did not include that potential commissions I was about to make in real estate and insurance.  The goal was to invest at least 40k/yr in real estate, in 10 years I estimated to have over $500,000 to build at least a passive income of $3,000/mo in which I can retire.  I was doing what I had planned but I was dead on the inside.

Why was I doing this?  What's the real motivation for earning so much money? Was I really doing it for myself or just to fulfill someone else's sense of what I should be doing.  I started crashing mentally, and slowly physically as well.  I hit 112 lbs at one point and had headaches that lasted for weeks.  I knew something was wrong but couldn't "wake" out of it.  Best thing I did after 3yrs of being in a rut was to leave it all behind and reverse my situation/thoughts.

Join the airforce.. as an officer and make alot of money? nah.. I needed to go to the lows of the lows.. where money, hopes, expectations were relatively non-existent.  Chose being a grunt, where the mind/intelligence is not needed and only a warm body counted.  I needed to see how people with "low IQ" has it figured out because someone with "high IQ" was losing it.

Life sucked so bad but I learned how to embrace the suck.  RESILIENCY was the name of the game I was learning to play.  With no expectations set of me as I was just a little low rank unimportant me, I was able to hone in on myself and increase my awareness..

In the first year, I learned how to defeat my anxiety.  I had an epiphany one night on WHY I was always looking towards the future.  I was a very, very OCD and organized person when I put my MIND to it, but when my MIND is in control, it can't stop thinking about the future and is always planning things I didn't want to happen.  It's good when it's controlled, but uncontrolled planning leads to extreme dreading of the future.  Planning for the future is good but I shouldn't "LIVE" in the future.  I learned to just spend a very small time thinking/planning and instead of focus on the NOW moment or focus on DOING what was planned.  This is the start of when the week-long headaches started to stop.

In the third year, during my slow grind fighting my mind, a "new" old idea came up.  I've always deprived myself of certain "happinesses" so that I can save money for the future.  Examples are of not buying materialistic things.  But to try to be "happy", I got into a relationship.  It was a weird relationship because my mind was throwing red-flags about it all over the place.  Even the girl always mentioned it to me that on the first time we met, that it seemed forced on my part.  It was true, I was forcing myself to be "happy" and let emotions take control.  Fast-forward months later and I had to finally listen to my mind.  The worst way to live is a reactive way to your emotions.  That's when I realized that the mind is a good thing when it is controlled, the mind is what can "control" emotions.

I finally learned that emotions are always going to be there.  As much as I "try" to be a Heero-Yuy and pretend that I don't have emotions, emotions are always going to be there.  The key that I found out is not in "controlling" emotions, but controlling my "responses" to the emotions.  That was a huge insight since I've separated the emotions from the "me".  Furthermore, staring into the stock market, there's a saying that truly hit me-- Staring into the stock market is like a mirror, all you will see is yourself.  And what I saw was someone that was in need of repair badly..

During my fifth year, controlling emotions and bad behaviors due to emotions was the game.  My trades from December 2016 resulted in losses due to emotional trading.  I intensely upped learning how habit formations work, how behaviors work, how to replace bad habits/behaviors, how to be disciplined to be much more effective in trading.

Summer 2017, I traded crypotcurrencies.  Losses due to emotional trading was still there but I was much more aware of it and was able to set up systems to limit my reactions to emotions therefore limiting my losses somewhat.  Majority of my losses was now due to my mind playing tricks on me.  I became even more aware that my mind was its own entity.  I mean it wasn't anything new that I didn't know-- i've tried to fight it before.  But unlike before, instead of fighting it, I started to apply what I learned with my emotions... to just accept that it's there and not to judge it.  Since I started to accept it and no longer identified myself with it, it was much easier to practice seeing things in the external world without passing judgement on them which is exactly what is needed to reach my goals in trading.

Rest of 2017-- Mindfulness and increasing attention are now the name of the game.  Increasing my ability to see things with more level-headedness/objectiveness is that last thing I need to learn before I start trading again.


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This next few paragraphs is something I sensed back in high school but was never really clear to me, I just felt that it was there but it wasn't very refined.  Stumbling upon this paragraph clears it up for me..

In "The Power of Now," Eckart Tolle wrote:

BEYOND HAPPINESS AND UNHAPPINESS THERE IS PEACE

THE HIGHER GOOD BEYOND GOOD AND BAD

Is there a difference between happiness and inner peace?

Yes. Happiness depends on conditions being perceived as positive; inner peace does not.

Is it not possible to attract only positive conditions into our life? If our attitude and our thinking are always positive, we would manifest only positive events and situations, wouldn't we?

Do you truly know what is positive and what is negative? Do you have the total picture? There have been many people for whom limitation, failure, loss, illness, or pain in whatever form turned out to be their greatest teacher.  It taught them to let go of false self-images and superficial ego-dictated goals and desires.  It gave them gepth, humility, and compassion.  It made them more real.

Whenever anything negative happens to you, there is a deep lesson concealed within it, although you may not see it at the time.  Even a brief illness or an accident can show you what is real and unreal in your life, what ultimately matters and whta doesn't.

Seen from a higher perspective, conditions are always positive.  To be more precise; they are neither positive nor negative.  They are as they are.  And when you live in complete acceptance of what is -- which is the only sane way to live __ there is no "good" or "bad" in your life anymore.  There is only a higher good -- which includes the "bad."  Seen from the perspective of the mind, however, there is good-bad, like-dislike, love-hate.  Hence, in the Book of Genesis, it is said that Adam and Eve were no longer allowed to dwell in "paradise" when they "ate of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil."

This sounds to me like denial and self-deception.  When something dreadful happens to me or someone close to me -- accident, illness, pain of some kind, or death -- I can pretend that it isn't bad, but the fact remains that it is bad, so why deny it?

You are not pretending anything.  You are allowing it to be as it is, that's all.  This "allowing to be" takes you beyond the mind with its resistance patterns that create the positive-negative polarities.  It is an essential aspect of forgiveness.  Forgiveness of the present is even more important than forgiveness of the past.  If you forgive every moment -- allow it to be as it is -- then there will be no accumulation of resentment that needs to be forgiven at some later time.

Remember that we are not talking about happiness here.  For example, when a loved one has just died, or you feel your own death approaching, you cannot be happy.  It is impossible.  But you can be at peace.  There may be sadness and tears, but provided that you have relinquished resistance, underneath the sadness you will feel a deep serenity, a stillness, a sacred presence.  This is the emanation of Being, this is inner peace, the good that has no opposite.

What if it is a situation that I can do something about?  How can I allow it to be and change it at the same time?

Do what you have to do.  In the meantime, accept what is.  Since mind and resistance are synonymous, acceptance immediately frees you from mind dominance and thus reconnects you with Being.  As a result, the usual ego motivations for "doing" -- fear, greed ,control, defending or feeding the false sense of self -- will cease to operate.  An intelligence much greater than the mind is now in charge, and so a different quality of consciousness will flow into your doing.

"Accept whatever comes to you woven in the pattern of your destiny, for what could more aptly fit your needs?"  This was written two thousand years ago by Marcus Aurelius, one of those exceedingly rare humans who possessed worldly power as well as wisdom.



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This is so stupid and funny at the same time... I posted a quote from Lao Tzu last year and contrary to what was depicted.  I always thought it said control your emotions.. Looking back now, the chains are also on the MIND... -_-;; tsk tsk... it's so sad to have something staring at you in the face yet you fail to completely comprehend what is in front of you because your too busy listening to what your mind says instead of listening to what's in front of you... well for the future of my trading... this is no more.. I am not my emotions, I am not my mind, I am.



  No to Nihilism

  Marcus Aurelius "Meditations"

  Seneca



 Epitectus